What the FUCK is wrong with me?

My blood levels have started to rise again. Not drop, rise? Am I a freak of nature? The doctor wants to see me tomorrow and in addition to my daily vampire draw, he wants to take some photos. I am not in a polaroid frame of mind thank you very much. Could I have spontaneously ovulated and it is all over? That would cause a surge too, right? I feel doomed. I am sure something is wrong. I can't stay optimistic. Even chocolate depresses me because I know it just makes the PCOS worse.